When Time just passes you by...(Part 1)

"Ku ucapkan Slamat Hari Natal~Ku ucapkan Slamat Hari Natal~" Ahh~ Christmas carols are filling the air again. After one whole year of bitter sweet  moments, I once again face Christmas. December is just meaningless if there's no Christmas.

However, what really hits me year after year is not what the season has to offer (songs, presents, fellowship, etc), insteads it's what comes before and after the season: CHANGE. 

So much has happened to me over the year, going through an emotional roller coaster can be quite tiresome, yet enlightening. 2011 started with me going through uni life with so much uncertainty. My faculty was throwing terms and concepts that are just completely foreign to me. Till the point I actually failed a core subject for semester 1. I felt down and defeated.

Fortunately, thank GOD that he led me to a church that focuses on reaching out to uni students. From there, my life became alot clearer in purpose and my attitude to my life starts to become more realistically positive (notice I used 'realistically'? We can be very positive, but completely complacent when facing life's problems).

Anyway, despite such blessings I failed another two subjects for the next semester. But, I don't feel down this time. There's always a second chance. By the tremendous grace of parents, faculty, and GOD, I'm allowed to fix my mistakes next year.

So, what has change?

Lets start with me, confidence and self-esteem was always a problem throughout my academic life. Sure, I was involved with many leadership positions in high school: prefect, school student president (opposition), scouts leader and a chairman for two clubs. But, I was still always doubting myself, unsure of what decisions I should make, how I should approach people about their faults? Plus being an introvert, doesn't help.

Now I'm not saying I have victoriously overcome this problem, but it has become more manageable. Perhaps it's because of my departure from parents' shadow, Being a "Mama's boy" can be quite damaging to my decision-making skills. 

Next, my understanding of GOD. This, I need to write with caution. I don't want to start a heresy just because of some minor mistake. Ahh~ I can't seem to write ny longer for now. Save the rest for later.! 

Farewell cards for my 2011 growth group. Designed by me and modfications by two lovely girls, from the group.

Who would've thought that a girl's touch could bring so much life to a card? :D    I truly did not regret my decision to allow the girls to be involved.

Look at all of those messages! I doubt anyone who claims to be unmoved by those handwritten treasures!