Sunday, July 29, 2012

Coincidence?!

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a romantic comedy. Seriously God, You always suprise me! Now I'm certain who holds my tomorrow.
Let this day be a mark of my absolute trust in my Lord God. The day I will be reborn...

Ok... you're probably wondering what I'm babbling about? Haha... The fact of the matter is this: she boarded the same train as me! Hence, this little post is just me venting. Cheers!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Homesick

Alright, here's my story: I came to Sydney, Australia in 2010 and did my Foundations in Design. A year later, I started my bachelor of Architectural Studies. That course started out alright until the workload started piling up and sucks up almost all of my soul. I hated that course and after one and a half year of studying Architecture, I changed my major: to Animation. But, in order for me to do so, I have to change my university (since they couldn't accept a program transfer from a student who is failing the course). As a consequence, I also have to move out of my accomodation and into a new one.

Far from the setting that I called my 'second home'.  And here we are! Everything is different, it's good, but I miss the lifestyle I had in my previously.
I guess this is life? Things change, people leave, and the best could do is suck it all up and keep moving forward, regardless of how unpleasant the situation may seem.

A note about the current accomodation: I feel like my life now is completely different to few months ago. I feel like I have more responsibilties upon my shoulders. My new landlady can be demanding at times (and funny thing is, this is just my first night!). Oh God~ please bestow me strength to live in this house. Living in the new house is just one hurdle, the next is my new major. Although it is definitely what I love, I can help but thinking that this path won't be sunshine and rainbows either, but I have to keep an optimistic mindset! Being animator is a tough job, yet a rewarding one if one is diligent, and has a sober mind. This is the life I chose, at the same time, this the life that I can't always decide who I want to live with or work with. The only thing I have full control is how I react to those "thorns".

Ok, enough blogging for now. Time to unpack all my boxes before that woman comes nagging me about house cleanliness.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

A turn for the worse

Something has changed. Something inside me has changed! I can't help but noticed that a significant part of my character has been altered. Or maybe I'm starting to show my true colours.
This change refers my attitude towards work, towards life, even towards God! Waking up late to church and not really participating in discussions during bible studies.
This change that I'm referring happened gradually and it was only this year it became more apparent. I used to be a 'yes man' and now I'm more comfortable in denying. Deny invitations, deny requests, deny... responsibilties. As I examine myself closely, I have this assumption that I'm becoming more self aware, resulting to me to doubt whatever I'm doing.
"Does it matter?" That's the question I kept asking myself.
I have only one theory: Right now, life's too comfortable for me.