Planning my work

Seriously? This is what I came up with?! I clearly lack the patience to plan out my animations

Lately I have been very unmotivated and uninspired. I want to create awesome animation but I seem to lack the patience to study the "technical" stuff, like learning Maya and to be more enthusiastic about my subjects.
What's wrong with me? Is my flaming passion dying?
Why is it so hard to find buddies who have the same interest as me, even in design school?!

As you could probably deduce from recent posts, they all look very uninspired and forced. And to make matters worse, my spiritual life is failing. I don't have the same drive to talk to God as I used to.

I don't like pretending, I just want live life sincerely and passionately. I want to produce artworks that could inspire others but it seems like the artist himself isn't inspired.

I need to grow out of this. I need to overcome this overwhelming feelings of emptiness.