The most frustrating thing about myself is that I procrastinate. I am so good at it ,to a degree, it should be considered a sin. For I am abusing the time that God has graciously provided. I question myself: What am I master ? I should be in more control of my mind and body.
I am such a filthy sinner. I should be in the streets, exiled from the comfort that I have. My emotions can sometimes get the better of me. That shouldn't be the case, but thats my reality. Due to the fact that I hate my course my a passion, I felt like I am without a noble passion. Architecture is supposed to be a noble pursuit, yet I'm clouded by fantasies regarding designing.
This industry is never an easy one. I am competing not with the asians but with other ethnicticity as well, the aussies are definitely crazy about architectute. It's not about making beautiful drawings and models. That's just the surface. Architecture is much deeper. It teaches me to see the world in a different light, to be objective. It's about the client, it's not about the client. It's about design, and it's about problem solving. It's about getting inspired, AND it's getting crushed by the sheer amount of work.
The path that I'm travelling is definitely not a stroll in the park, it's a battlefield. Therefore, I need to decide now, what should I master in the field of architecture? Architects are known to be skilled in many fields but that seems too far fetched to me. Instead, being objective is the key. Dear Lord, please grant me the ability of foresight, and a determined mind. I thank the Lord that He has graciously cared for me especially through His son, Jesus. For I was the one that deserved hell, but he took it upon himself instead. Help me, to take up my cross daily. May the Lord continually sustain me. Amen.
I am such a filthy sinner. I should be in the streets, exiled from the comfort that I have. My emotions can sometimes get the better of me. That shouldn't be the case, but thats my reality. Due to the fact that I hate my course my a passion, I felt like I am without a noble passion. Architecture is supposed to be a noble pursuit, yet I'm clouded by fantasies regarding designing.
This industry is never an easy one. I am competing not with the asians but with other ethnicticity as well, the aussies are definitely crazy about architectute. It's not about making beautiful drawings and models. That's just the surface. Architecture is much deeper. It teaches me to see the world in a different light, to be objective. It's about the client, it's not about the client. It's about design, and it's about problem solving. It's about getting inspired, AND it's getting crushed by the sheer amount of work.
The path that I'm travelling is definitely not a stroll in the park, it's a battlefield. Therefore, I need to decide now, what should I master in the field of architecture? Architects are known to be skilled in many fields but that seems too far fetched to me. Instead, being objective is the key. Dear Lord, please grant me the ability of foresight, and a determined mind. I thank the Lord that He has graciously cared for me especially through His son, Jesus. For I was the one that deserved hell, but he took it upon himself instead. Help me, to take up my cross daily. May the Lord continually sustain me. Amen.
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